Q is not anybody's Fool

I do not base my friendships on the "like-minded" or those who wish to push their credo on me for whatever forms of "social acceptability". I prefer people who don't lie to themselves, rather, say what they mean and mean what they say, and especially know how to respect that 18 inch intimate zone. I grew up in a cold war world full of deceptions and psychological entrapments, where knowing your enemies among those who proposed to be your friends was a matter of life or death. While I have never known my brain damaged mother to be sound of mind, my machiavellian father was of no help either. Neither of them had much time for us other than beat their war propaganda distorted schisms into us to no avail. We were merely there to fit the 2.3 children standard of social acceptability in those days; for them to acquire all the domestic conveniences the goverment had on offer for their services. The old "children should be seen and not heard" regime, put on display whenever social acceptability required it while packing up the troubles in the old kit bag to smile, smile, smile. Yeah right, I was stuck in the political grey zone between east and west, two families divided. One fleeing the underbelly of profligate nobility, the other fleeing oppressive socialist regimes. Stuck in a no-zone of such insurmountable contradictions you soon learn how to read between the lies. It's not like people were simply out to exploit and betray you, it was much deeper than that. These were people who had become mere shadows of their former selves through denial of their own self-betrayal for the promises of an ideal world- always looking to shift the blame on the non-players. Any trace of remorse was completely buried under that dense facade of mutually assured self-righteousness. A strange belief in some god-sent cosmic messenger gonna make it all better for them. I'm not going to name it Christianity, because that's only one of its guises, rather, comes in all kinds of ideological gestalts and not necessarily always religious or political. So don't come onto me with that idyllic what you think I should be. It's not like I haven't heard that line before. When I snap at you it's because I see you're trying to pull a sneaky. Don't kid yourself, I'm not at all swayed by overt flattery, positivity NLP, peer worshipping sycophantic come ons or any kind of psychobabble; nor will I submit to threats of emotional blackmail, social rejection or the ugly rumour gallery for that matter. I'm not lobbying for an entourage or trying to "shine above all the rest" but if you are going to use my information, either keep it under my name- or do the logical thing; like start your own discussion from your own perspective, or even your own group. Thank you.