For years now I've been warning people of this demon called "supremacism" in its many shades of deception and nihilism. My mother's family were once very civil and respected citizens of Selesia. Their views were moderate and well educated, but didn't stand chance under the fool moves of an aging monarchy. My mother's father was a medical doctor who got conscripted in WWI to look after prisoners in Sarajevo. He had scarcely got out of there when the economy started failing, having lost much of its work force to the casualties of that futile war. To make matters worse, destitution turned to false hopes in the promises made by socialist movements. After knowing what happened in Russia, he was not inclined to trust either, albeit senile autocracy or national socialist nihilism. His brothers and sisters had a good milling business going until the Nazis demanded a list of their Jewish employees. All records were promptly burnt and they committed suicide to insure not a word would fall into the wrong hands. He also learned that his wife divorced him and left my mother in a Catholic orphanage, where she was being brutally abused. He took her out of there and moved to Breslau. There they enjoyed the city life until the Gestapo showed up and arrested him for shaking his fist at their entourage and saying "Hitler verrecke!". He was thrown into a labour camp in Lower Saxony, while my mother was conscripted into the Luftwaffe, and that at the age of 14. Meanwhile her sister became an NS nurse, and her brother landed in the infantry where he lost a lung in battle. When my grandfather was finally released by the British Army and brought to Hameln,they put him into the position of employment director there. My mother had escaped to the American lines, made the last train out of Dresden before the city was bombed flat and the Russians moved in. She took up a job of telephone operator in Frankfurt for five years before her brother finally found her and told her, her father was alive and well in Hameln. She moved to Hameln and got a job as secretary of the British CO on the base there. That was where she met my father, but all the Nazis in hiding didn't like that and tried to kill her. That's when my grandfather disowned her brother and sister, when they tried to raid her apartment, assuming she was dead. Surprisingly she survived the severe head injury, so my father promptly married her and took her to his family in Fort Erie, Canada where I was born six months later. Unfortunately I've never known her as sound of mind since. For years I've had to endure being called a Nazi, just because of my German background. It only goes to show how stupid and superficial some people can be, as if such atrocity is congenital, say nothing of being racist themselves...and with all the Nazi scientists the allies divided among themselves, in reality the curse continued in secret behind closed doors. Say nothing of Josef Mengele being on the Canada Research Council payroll.
With elements of family still trapped in the grey zone between east and west, we were constantly under surveillance, until we moved to Westphalia in 1965. I fared better with the locals because of their similar experiences and war damaged parents. We were the rebels of the time, growing up in a schism where the enemies of our enemies were not necessarily our friends. "Why are you hanging out with the Germans? and who is that old guy we see you with?" the Canadian military community would say. Maybe it's because I'm a fucking German and that old guy happens to be my grandfather you idiot. Just because some psychopath from Austria-Hungary resurrected all the wannabe despots of a new world order doesn't mean everything that's German is Nazi. Opa called them "Lumpenproletariat" because they were all sociopathic criminals, always blaming the victim instead of their own overweening arrogance. It took me years to get out of that schism until the wall finally came down. Over the years I had inched my way into the higher echelons to finally make my escape from all that regime mentality and finally succeeded. So I'm not about to be fooled by any nihistic perverts who think they're the godsent chosen.
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